My narcissistic mother told me, after thousands of dollars used to supplement her lifestyle over the years and 20+ years of putting up with her gaslighting and manipulation, that my brothers (her golden children) were easier to love. Basically, she told me that regardless of all of the crap I put up with from her, regardless of the sacrifices I had made, that I wasn’t worthy of love. Wow. Thanks for that. Some people are not meant to be parents.