Same. I never quite understood why the peers of my childhood were so f*cking mean to me. I mean, yeah, I get it. I was made fun of for every breath I took from the time I left kindergarten until high school. I was poor, quiet (introverted), was forced to wear ill-fitting clothing, didn’t have the basics of hygiene available in my home, I had crooked teeth (didn’t go to the dentist until I was an adult), suffered abuse and neglect at home…And so, in their cruel little minds, I was not worthy of kindness. Instead, I was bullied constantly. Basically, my home life sucked as did my school life. I wasn’t very attractive either. I was curvy when girls were expected to be blonde, tan, and scrawny. I was shapely and redheaded, couldn’t tan if I wanted to. I was made fun of for things I had absolutely no control over and to this day hold resentment knowing those brats knew exactly what they were doing. Innocent my a**. I was socially brutalized so much so that when I see kids doing it today, it is everything I can do not to march over and tell them what little monsters they are and to shut that sh*t down. I mean, yeah, as an adult I will stop it, but it takes a beat for me to not channel the hurt little girl inside of me when doing it. But, whenever I do run into some random person I went to school with who I recall treated me poorly, I make a point to remind them. I’m frosty and curt. You know, when they dare to walk up and chat me up like we’re old friends. I remind them of just how awful to me they were and I hope karma has repaid them for their ugliness. Maybe that is petty. But I feel I have the right to remind them; humble them a little; take the princess off her pedestal and let her know just how miserable he/she made me feel.

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