See, what is that? I’ve had some version of this experience where I’ve helped out/gone out of my way to help family, friends, boyfriends, etc. (at times dropping everything or paying for everything in order to help) only to have those same people be unreliable and refuse to help me when I need it. Now I’m a fucking monster because when people want me to do something and I don’t want to, I say no (for good reason).